`Sunday, December 05, 2004;__
depressed!
arghhh i'm depressed!
no matter how hard i trythe smile i
used to have will nvr be the same again!
i cant seem to control my emotions!
i jus cant. oh baby i'm too lost in u !
i miss u so much tt i hope u'r by my
side right now at this moment!
everything is jus too late now...
i guess no point sayin all tt.
went veron's hse reach there abt
10 plus and after tt i played with
the tarot card.. oh mann is freakin true!
i cant believe it at first so i tried AGAIN!
is so damn true. really really true!!!
is freaky! eeekkk... cant believe is so true!
oh gosh... oh yea heard tt the shutter is niceee?
argh i wanna watch!! anybody in terested?
pls give me a call!!! i wanna watch!!!
okay so sms-ed him and stuff..
was kinda disapointed coz he dun seem
to understand at all since the very beginin.
he dun understand me at all i wud say!
he accept all the stupid reasons tt i gave!
he dun bother to find the real reason out?
yea he dont! he dun seem to bother.
everythings changed! and is negative ones.
i hate it i hate my life right now.
i cant control my tears so i burst out...
i was lyin on her bed. she tot i was
havin flue out of sudden?
nah gal i cant control my emotions tts all.
i hate the feelins when i read the smses.
my heart is bleedin so badly...
and is broken into million pieces.!
i hate it i jus hate it!
boii i miss u so much!
yes i believe u deserve a better gal.
and i believe tt i dun deserve u at all
but so wad? do u noe the real reason?
u're jus too popular till i find myself
so insecure. i'm worry tt one day u
might jus dump me. u're jus too popular.
so i accept the fact and i let go of u?
before i get dump?
u wanna be popular? or u shud i say
u wanna be famous? but i jus hate
it when u'r too famous coz boii
i feel insecure!
u think i'm selfish?
boii i admit i m but dont u think
tt u're selfish too? coz u only wan
to be famous and nvr spare a thought
for me... u're famous among gals
yes i get jealous but so wad?
do u acctually give a damn about
how i feel? u dun even noe how i feel
i bet. i'm not lk some other gals tt u noe!
i'm not! i get jealous yea i do!
i find myself insecure tts wad i always do!
but u dont know! coz u dunt give a damn.
u only think of yourself!
u dont even have time to spare some
thoughts for me! u dont have the time to!
u'r always busy. u're always so busyin
to improve urself so u can get famous!
u only want to be famous.
i dun wish to type them out in the first
place. i tot is no point sayin all tt.
coz i'm jus degradin myself. but boii
i dun care so much anymore.
u thought? u thought i was doin
the best for US? boi i'm not
doin the best for us pls is for U!...
coz u wanna be famous?!?!
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:41 PM;__
